cohen's been home this week (missed missed missed him) so i haven't had a moment to really write a post. i had planned on doing it last night, but while playing with the kiddos my 60 lb. sheba got a little excited and body slammed me in the head with her ass. going about 100 mph. migraine. all fun and games until someone slams her ass into your head.

anyway. . .  i lost 1 lb. not great, and not at all at the rate i'd like to be going, but definitely in the right direction so i won't complain. i feel like a contestant on the biggest loser. i'm so very close to being below 180, i can taste it. it tastes like sugar-free, low calorie, no-fat yummy goodness considering i haven't been there in over 2 years. in high school and through my first year of college i maintained my weight in the 150s. then, through the end of college and before cohen, i was pretty happy in the 160s. after cohen, i hung out in the 170s with ease. and since irie, i have barely been in the 180s. if i don't remain conscious of what i'm eating, even that's a struggle. i've come to terms with the fact that i can eat no where near the way i used to. however, before kids i was more concerned with my entertainment budget (which included adult beverages and dancing my tush off) rather than my grocery budget. a lot changes in a few years. . .

so, today i'm at 181, and i'm ok with that. i know exactly why i didn't lose more. . . i ate out A LOT this week and indulged in a few happy hours. let's see, there was mexican food and drinks with my amber(!!!) and tiff and nicole saturday night. pluckers sunday night with family and friends (but i was somewhat good with my side salad and one chicken wing). happy hour with fabulous watermelon mojitos and kinda-sorta health-conscious appetizers (which i shared with tiffany) on tuesday. wednesday night, chancellor ordered pizza and i stopped after one slice. we had mexican food last night, but i didn't get to eat very much once cohen decided his food was too spicy and had a bit of a toddler meltdown and asked to go home. i forgot to eat dinner tonight.

ok. i ate like crap, no matter how much i did or didn't eat. dinner is where all of my daily hard work goes to shit basically. the fact that i take careful note of what i'm eating during the day before i blow it pretty much as soon as i leave work, is probably the only reason i actually lost anything. i'm thinking i'll do much better next week. i'd better, dammit.

i also took a picture for you. it's really, really super hot stuff, man.


i'm thinking i could have had better posture. i was trying my hardest to appear natural without sucking in all of my gut but not have it protruding like i have some sort of sickness causing unnatural bloating. i am excited, however, that those pants are sooo baggy! they were skin tight when i bought them a couple of weeks ago. (wait, i love those pants! better get that sewing machine out and learn how to alter clothes!)  i also tried to find a picture of my before before but, of course, i avoided cameras then like they would take my soul. kinda sad really...  i have no good pictures of me and my kiddos over the last couple of years. really very sad, actually.

i'm workin' on it.

hope you've had a kick ass week!!