a letter to myself. . .
12:13 PM* i was reminded of a letter i had written to myself a few weeks ago after seeing this on pinterest....
when i wrote this letter, i was excited. i was in a good place within myself. i had just handed in the keys to the house we shared. the house he walked out of. the house he never came back to. that house left me feeling overwhelmed, sad, abandoned, angry, frustrated, rejected. and when i turned in those keys, i felt relief you wouldn't believe. it was time. time to start over again. time to find myself again. angela. aj. momma. me. and i couldn't wait.
20july14
dear you,
today is the day your new life begins! smile;) you made it. you did it. you've moved out of the house and you never have to go back. now, you have your new space, your own space.
a space you can create into what you've always wanted.
a space that feels good and safe and comfortable.
a space that reflects who you are and what you want and where you are going.
now, you can actually move forward and create the life you deserve. the happy, barefoot and fancy free life, with the people you love and cherish. the people that support you and value you.
they know you. they love you. they are GOOD for you.
you will not go backward. you will not continue to repeat the pattern you've grown accustomed to. you will love yourself enough to say "no."
NO to people who pull you down, or at least try.
NO to things that make you unhappy or frustrated or angry or sad.
NO to giving parts of yourself away like charity. you will only give yourself to people and things that return that favor.
you are beautiful. you are strong. you are secure. you are happy.
you have a lot to give to your relationships, and you will do so with caution and without offering parts of yourself you can't get back to people who don't accept the huge responsibility of what that means. but you will not shy away from them. you will not avoid them for fear of being hurt. and when you've decided that all is well, you will give all that you can give, because that is your nature and that is what makes you feel alive.
you will not let your past ruin your future relationships.
you do not have to give everyone the benefit of the doubt.
you are not responsible for someone's "potential."
you will no longer surround yourself with "potential."
you are 31 years old. if the people you meet have not yet reached for their own potential, they are not going to. but take note of those who do reach. we have all had our lows and you will appreciate their effort, as long as it's genuine and positive.
you are a mother. your children fill your life to capacity with the most overwhelming joy. if you are going to share your time, your space, your heart, your love, your life with anything and anyone else, it had better damn well be worth it. it is your responsibility, your obligation, to provide them with the best you can possibly provide and that includes the full and happy person that you are.
you will lead by example.
you will lead by example.
you will love this life.
you will LIVE this life.
you will make the most and the best out of this life, because not only do they deserve to witness and learn and know and understand just how wonderful this life can be, you deserve that too.
you deserve it.
go get it.
go live it.
don't rush through it.
don't hold back.
dance, laugh, and cry when you need to.
keep your smile, it comes so natural to you.
this is your life. own it.
love, me
* i'm still so excited.
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