i turned 31 this weekend. thirty one. i am officially an adult. ok, fine. i've been an adult for awhile now. i have two kids, i'm married, i've purchased many appliances, i can buy booze without people carding me. all things that are supposed to be what adults do, but now i'm "in my thirties" and that seems to be the most grown up thing. even at 30, i didn't feel the need to lump myself in with ALL of the other 30 somethings, i mean just days over a year ago, i was in my twenties... but now? now, i need to get my shit together.

you know how you had this idea of what it would be like to be "all growed up" (as cohen says it)? you'd get to do whatever you wanted, no one was gonna tell you what to do, you could eat birthday cake for breakfast if you wanted. you'd live in a big house and drive a nice car and you'd be rich and have a really cute husband and even cuter kids. well, most of that has happened. i don't actually get to do whatever i want, i do whatever my kids want. no one tells me what to do, but sometimes i wish they would. i definitely have absolutely no problem whatsoever eating cake for breakfast. my house is big enough and my car is pretty nice. i'm rich in love with my super cute family.

one of the things you never quite paid attention to as a wee lad, is when all of those grown ups told you "stay young, slow down, quit trying to grow up so fast." i guess part of not being an adult is thinking you know everything.

so, as i begin my 31 years, i've spent some time reflecting on my life.... where I was 10 years ago - dancing on bars, drinking it up, partying my face off, meeting every single person who walked in front of me and making them my new bff. 5 years ago - a single mom, struggling, learning to keep my head above water, realizing I could make it on my own. where I am today - thirty something.

and where i want to be.

well, where and who do i want to be in the future... five, ten years from now?

that one is harder. something happens as you get older, you become more comfortable, more content with the present. you're not reminiscing on the "good ol' days" or desperately looking to the future for the next best thing while missing out on all of the awesome happening around you. there are some things i'd like to focus on this year though...

1. be more organized
2. find more time
3. be as creative as i wanna be
4. sing more
5. quit yelling
6. keep my car clean... trunk too.
7. spend my days off doing more fun things
8. come up with and actually stick to a family budget
9. start multiple savings accounts: retirement, college fund, travel, new house, "just cause"
10. lose 31 lbs.
11. read more
12. blog more
13. purge the entire house of anything that doesn't speak to or represent me
14. redecorate the ENTIRE house
15. go on a cruise
16. just travel more in general
17. weekend getaways with the kids (and alone with the hubs)
18. call my grandparents more
19. spend more one on one time with each kiddo
20. spend more one on one time with my handsome honey
21. purge the negative, overdose on the positive
22. make my etsy shop a successful priority
23. organize the "Annual BAB Retreat"
24. quit smoking
25. spend more time on myself
26. learn to love exercise
27. go to bed earlier
28. write a book
29. pay off all debt
30. grow a garden
31. quit procrastinating